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In Memory…

Filed under: Lifestyle — groovymarlin @ 12:26 am November 28, 2009

My cat Bootie died tonight, some time around 11pm or so, we’re not really sure. She was lying on the hearth, enjoying the fire, and left us peacefully. She was almost 19 years old, and had been going downhill, albeit slowly for the past year or so – losing a lot of weight, slowing down. But she was still doing pretty well until a few days ago. Then she started moving really slowly, and often seemed disoriented. But she continued to eat (a little), drink, and use her litterbox. Today she started staggering, and could only take a few steps before needing to lie down wherever she was and rest. It was heartbreaking, and I had made up my mind to taker to the Animal Hospital tomorrow and have her euthanised. Instead, she died tonight at home, and I’m glad.

So here’s to Bootie, she was an interesting cat. I had her for 18 years. She was with me through two boyfriends, two husbands, one divorce, five apartments, two houses, four jobs, and everything that happened in between. In personality, she veered between clingy and affectionate (to us in the family) to hateful and hissing (to everyone and everything else). I’m sad to see her go, but relieved that she didn’t suffer, and happy she died in a place where everything was familiar. The hubz has promised to bury her in the back yard tomorrow morning; in some quiet, unmarked corner. That may be illegal where we live – I’m not sure, but I don’t really care.

No more pets for a while, I think. Maybe someday. Rest in peace, little grandma, rest in peace.

cutie

3x the Satisfaction…

Filed under: Daily Song,Music — groovymarlin @ 9:39 am November 24, 2009

The Rolling Stones, Devo, and Benny Benassi…

Frequently Asked Questions

Filed under: Lifestyle — groovymarlin @ 7:02 pm November 23, 2009

Do you ever wish you had a button that people could push to access your own, personal FAQ? Without bothering you with the details, that is. Well, obviously, I have. I could use a personal FAQ, actually I have needed multiple versions. There’s a whole special version of the FAQ that I needed when I was pregnant – all women could probably use the same one actually, because the same questions get asked over and over (do you know if it’s a boy or girl? are you excited? are you scared? do you have a name? can I touch your giant belly?).

Here’s some of the Qs and As that would go on my personal FAQ.

Q. Do you know who your biological parents are?

A. Yes, and I have communicated with my biological mom. However, she currently refuses to speak to or correspond with me. No, I don’t know why; and no, there wasn’t any particular event that led to this circumstance. Yes, it is painful, and please don’t ask about it again.

Q. Is it hard to learn to play the violin? Can you still play? How good were you?

A. Pardon me for not answering these in order. I was very good. I studied with great teachers from the time I was 10 years old until years after college. I almost quit my day job and did music full time when I lived in Ohio. However, it didn’t work out that way. Yes, it is hard to learn – I won’t lie about that. But, much like riding a bicycle, you never forget, and I can still play (although I never do, and my reasons for that are too complicated to explain).

Q. How did you get into computers/IT/software testing/etc.?

A. Honestly, how does one AVOID getting into a technical field these days? OK. I took a little programming in college, really got into computers and software when I was still working clerical jobs, eventually got lucky and interviewed with someone who was willing to take a chance on me, and discovered my own aptitude. Most of my life I’ve kind of “fallen into” things, and my career is no exception.

Q. Are you going to have more children?

A. I would like to, but I kind of doubt it, unless we adopt. I’m getting a little long in the tooth, as they say.

Q. Why are you writing a blog?

A. Why are you reading one?

Q. Is it true about you and super-hunky B-movie icon Bruce Campbell?

A. No comment. :)

Streets of Bakersfield, Part Deux

Filed under: Daily Song,Music — groovymarlin @ 11:22 am November 18, 2009

I posted this song, as performed by Dwight Yoakam, once before, but it has since been taken off YouTube. So here’s Dwight (the only country performer that I like) performing it with Buck Owens (who actually was pretty awesome on Hee-Haw):

Mammograms

Filed under: Lifestyle,Rants — groovymarlin @ 11:06 am

How appropriate. About a week after my doctor diagnosed me with fibrocystic breast disease (not really a disease, really, but a condition), a news story breaks about possible new recommendations about mammograms. Part of these recommendations didn’t surprise me, that is, that women 40-49 don’t need to routinely have them. Not surprising, because women in this age group (mine!) have notoriously hard to read mammograms. Actually, younger women have even harder to read films, but from 40-49 there’s increased risk of breast cancer, yet the breast tissue has not become easier to read in mammogram, as it does after 50. Another recommendation, that women over 50 only get mammograms every two years, didn’t surprise me too much either. But what really kind of blew me away was the recommendation that women shouldn’t be taught to do self-exams.

What?

Actually, I think what they actually found was that when women do regular self-exams of their own breasts, survival rates are not significantly better than if they don’t examine themselves at all. In any case, this seems wrong to me. I mean, if you’re going to tell women over 40 who don’t have other risk factors that they don’t need to get a mammogram every year, I can maybe get on board with that, as long as they’re still examining their own breasts. Because otherwise, what are they saying – just take your chances for a decade?

You know, I have a funny relationship with all these tests. Last year, I had my first mammogram, and then was told I had to come back for a second, diagnostic mammogram and an ultrasound. Of course, in the weeks before this second appointment, I was terrified. My mother died from breast cancer in 1994. I was adopted, so I’m not necessarily at higher risk because of her diagnosis, but still, it was awful, and I’m very vigilant about my own health as a result. The second mammogram and ultrasound showed I had a cyst (or cysts). Recommendation: do nothing, have another mammogram in a year. That anniversary is coming up in a few months. In the meantime, I started having awful, burning pain in my breasts/armpits/upper inside arms. I was sure it was cancer, even though I couldn’t feel any lumps. That’s when I went to my doctor and got the fibrocystic diagnosis. She started me on evening primrose oil capsules, change me to a lower dose birth control pill (which I’ll probably be taking continuously), and told me to hold off at least a month or two on the mammogram, in hopes that these steps will help make my eventual film more readable.

Then these new recommendations come out, and I’m not a bit surprised. On one hand, I don’t want to take any chances. I’m one of those people that, if I got genetic testing and found out I had the gene that predisposes women to breast cancer, I’d have NO PROBLEM whatsoever having a preventative mastectomy. Just get them off, please. Take away the cancer pillows, just rebuild me some newer, better, bionic boobs afterward (and hey, how about a tummy tuck while you’re at it? ha). On the other hand, false positive results are the story of my life – witness my issues last year. And I know that my breast tissue is hard to read on an x-ray, and I have a high chance of having yet another false positive, which could lead to more x-rays, another ultrasound, maybe even an unnecessary biopsy.

What’s a woman to do? Other than feel confused and frightened, of course – I got that covered.

More reading:

CNN: Task force opposes routine mammograms for women age 40-49

American Cancer Society Responds to Changes to USPSTF Mammography Guidelines

Mammography: What to Do Now?

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